May 27, 2015

I'm Sooooo Busy!

So I've been saying that quite a bit lately, and truth is, I am. I've also noticed that everyone else is busy too.  In truth, we all are. How often do you hear, "I am just sooooo busy, I just don't have time!"? We use it as a rite of passage to show to everyone around us that life has dealt us more than humanly possible and my busy workload/weekend/life trumps yours. My to do list is longer than yours.

But is that really a good thing?

I keep hearing these words come out of my mouth and people around me as an excuse as to why we are overweight, sick, unhappy, crazy, unbalanced and just don't have time for each other. Do we do it to get sympathy? I guess sometimes I just want people to understand that the struggle is real (haha). Like real real. But what's the point of that? At the end of the day, when I don't make time for my family, friends, finding balance, and anything else that would likely make me happier, I am not a human being, I am merely a human doing.

See that there?

A human doing versus a human being. When we are pile our plates so high,  we are just doing, we aren't being. And yet, we compete to be the person who does the most stuff like it's a competition that in the end we will be crowned the winner of "Busy".

How boring does it sound to say you did nothing this past weekend? Or at work admit you had the time to sneak out and go to the gym for an hour AND take a shower? Because scenario A would make me think you don't have a life, and scenario B would instantly make me say to myself, "I wish I had the time for that." likely in a super shitty way. Here's the thing. I'm admitting it. I am sooooooo busy, but the real deal is that I would love to do nothing during the weekend besides relax, and the girl who has time to go to the gym at lunch? She's happier and more balanced than me, and for that, I am jealous.

Let's assume people know we are busy (because we've told them like 20 times). Does it change it at all?  Does it make you feel better? You still need to find some time, space, balance, closeness- something, that while it won't make you any less busy, it will make you a human being that feels connected to something greater than just the things we accomplish by being busy. And isn't that what we were all meant for? To be, not just to do?

So let's be bored, let's be balanced, let's be inspired, let's be kind, let's be an ear, let's be a friend,  let's be intentional, but for the love of pete, let's stop being so damn busy.

May 21, 2015


I've felt a need to write lately, for no other reason than in hopes of calming the crazy in my mind. I thought maybe it would help to write all the feelings that come with trying to have it all and not lose your shit on a daily basis. Two years ago, got the dream job, worked ass off at dream job to get dream promotion. Then have been riddled with anxiety since getting dream promotion. It's a vicious cycle isn't it? How you can be really happy, feel entirely blessed with what you have, but also have a constant fear of it slipping away?

Insert where my fingers meet the keypad and I sheepishly say "I'm Back..". Also, my sister is somewhere around here, maybe I can get her to come and talk about life with her 5 year old. Yes, time flies when you're Adulting (my new term for when you are acting like an adult but you don't feel like one) real hard.

Here is my attempt to discuss everything and anything that's on my mind in hopes it shuts the hell up.

My short list

  • Happiness
  • Anxiety
  • Work/Life Balance
  • Babies? ugh
  • Friends? double ugh
  • Adulting (not to be confused with adultery, but I guess that's a solid subject too) 
  • Conquering yoga studios
  • Worthiness
  • Woman CEO's
  • How Do I become more creative?
  • Conquering pretty much any physical activity
  • Airplanes

June 10, 2013


Man! It's been a while since I've posted. So many days of the week I think of things I want to write when I'm driving, or sitting at my desk when the last thing I can do is just sit down with my thoughts and write. Isn't that how so much of life is? You feel like working out when you're at your desk? You feel like going for a drink while you're working out? It goes on and on. See, the intention is there, it's just rearranging your life to add the things that are important in it. I've been trying to be better at giving myself more balance as a person. I haven't started the new job yet, but I am determined to start it off on the right foot. I want to figure out what it is that keeps me balanced, and make a commitment to doing those things. Writing. Working out. Reflecting. Being Positive. Sometimes it takes a commitment to do the things you love, which seems so ironic. What is it about ourselves that everything else gets our time except the things we enjoy the most? Intention is such a powerful word, don't you think? But left undone, intention is nothing but a promise left unfilled. We all intend to do things: call that old friend, let go of a grudge, start eating healthy for ourselves, take that class, tell someone how you really feel...... This summer, while the earth gives me more daylight, I am going to take more time for life to make more of my intentions realities, including being more present here on my blog more.

Won't you join me??

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